The Annals of Ee Lin

我想我需要时间。。

2011-09-11T04:19:00.000-07:00

不喜欢依赖！
不喜欢别人比自己还要了解自己！
不喜欢容易的被人看透！
不喜欢有事没事都想跟同一个人说！
不喜欢没有自信的自己！
不喜欢/也不需要被可怜！！！！

喜欢看浪漫动漫！
喜欢你推荐的音乐！
喜欢你迅速的回复！（短讯）
喜欢爱看书的你！
喜欢爱干净的你！
喜欢爱讲大道理的你！

还有人比我更矛盾吗？

http://youtu.be/DYyE68IIx0U

2010 年的夏天

2010-09-25T07:18:00.000-07:00

今年的夏天，不知不觉地就过了。。
很高兴认识了很多朋友，有得必有失，我好像有长大了一点耶。。

我喜欢听别人的故事，真的很喜欢！楚德，你要加油！别把爱情看得那么重，人生还有很多东西可以追求的！
回家，弹琴的时候发现有生疏，这样不行啊！需要练习。。
朋友都对我很好，感恩。。庆幸有你们在我身旁的鼓励和时不时的关怀。。。好温馨哦。。
现在发现自己很爱玩castle age，是寄托吗？可能吧。。以前我都不玩的
爸爸妈妈弟弟妹妹，都很疼我。。我在柔佛会很想念你们的。。。

鑫婷，加油！抗豆需要耐心，我很有信心一定会好。。。
芷倩，谢谢你的照顾，我们一起经历了不少啊，感谢你一直都在我身边的鼓励。。。

盈盈，凯麟，su yen ，毅宏，teck kai, parami, 和ming may..能认识你们真的很高兴。。

TPG, 我哪里可怕了？我们真的是朋友吗？累了，真的很累。。。被这样说了，让我觉得自己很可笑。。나는 바보입니다

有点累，很想睡。。>.<再说吧！

Random but not too Random

2010-06-29T17:22:00.000-07:00

抵达台北的第二天，心情有点复杂。。昨天，约了文明在忠孝复兴站前见面。。因为还没有注册新号码，所以就用了公共电话。不知是不是因为这样所以地点都没谈好。。他在出口1等我，我却在太平洋（SOGO)前。等了一下，决定去对面的通信店申请号码，以方便联络。文明带我去了他们的宿舍，还不赖啦，设备都很齐全，装潢也不错。Supper gang 都很亲切，他们说我和我妹很像。。我觉得还好耶，我比她胖很多好不好？！他们的冷笑话都很冷，哈哈！过了半小时，大家准备出发。

第一站：台北车站和铠毅见面。（可没去逛新光三越）
第二站：补习街，西门町，还有去了大黑松小两口买牛扎糖。。我没买，因为我不爱吃，很粘牙=.=

铠毅，我和yin hong 去西门红楼，因为我想看看Taiwan Philharmonic Orchestra有没有办演奏会。。我发现有String Quartet..可以在7买票。这里的7都很方便。

晚上，文明说他在飞天火锅定了位子，大家的晚餐就在那解决。真的是飞天，小辣也让我觉得很辣而且很油！文明吃了11球的Haagen Daaz 雪糕。哇，真的是值得。。

我们吃了2个半小时，男生就想看球了。付了钱，他们就回宿舍。文明陪我回忠孝复兴站。临别前，谈了一下。

跟他说，我很怕，我怕我不够好。有点压力。好像都没人陪。很担心。

他说，怕，怕什么？
怕不够好，他说，那你跟谁比？跟别人吗？还是自己。只要做到最好，就不用怕了啊。。而且哪有人一出生就会到完的，慢慢学习吧。他还讲了很多，让我很安心。谢谢。

晚上，MSN　和TPG 聊了一下。
他说，I　ｈｏｐｅ　ｙｏｕ　ｃｏｍｅ　ｈｅｒｅ　ｉｓ　ｎｏｔ　ｂｅｃａｕｓｅ　ｏｆ　ｍｅ．我真的很感激他，因为他让我回想起我申请的初衷。
很庆辛，真的不是因为他。因为，如果，来这里的原因是他，那么我真的是觉得自己太逊了。我会很讨厌我自己，而且，也浪费了这次学习的机会。机会永远留给心态对的人，有人正确的心态，就会有正确的学习态度，有了正确的学习态度，就不轻易放弃。至少我是这么想的。

我不知道将来会发生什么事，会不会遇到很多挫折，可是我真的不想去逃避，想勇敢面对。无论是研究或是感情。

朋友都问，你毕业了去Ｉｎｔｅｒｎｓｈｉｐ　干嘛？！答案我有，可我懒得解释。就随便敷衍两句，就当作普通朋友的交代。谢谢你的疑问，让我更肯定我自己的答案。：）

好了，我要写ｐｒｏｇｒｅｓｓ　ｒｅｐｏｒｔ　ｆｏｒ　ｉｎ　ｓｉｌｉｃｏ　ｓｉｔｅ　ｄｉｒｅｃｔｅｄ　ｍｕｔａｇｅｎｅｓｉｓ．Ｄｒ．　Ｐｅｔｅｒ　说我得告诉他我学了什么。

下次再说吧。。。。

王俞勻《全世界的人都知道》MV

2010-06-20T11:05:00.000-07:00

This is the best Taiwan Drama I ever watched. I had watched it like so many times! I watched it during exam, when my brain stucks, I watched it when my roomate wasn't in room to accompany me and i watched it when I used to miss someone..:P but someone thinks that I am very childish watching this kinds of drama...Am I too old to watch this kinds of drama? =.=|||

Jonas Brothers

2010-05-24T08:09:00.000-07:00

This is the music sheet for Fly with me <3

Fly With ME -

Source:http://writtenmelodies.blogspot.com/2009/07/blog-post_20.html

Shocked and Overwhelmed

2010-05-20T07:07:00.000-07:00

Impossible task assigned by supervisor:

On 21st of Jun, I will be conducting a seminar on Accelrys Discovery studio (Docking) and AutoDock4 in IMU. Blank!Damn! .....Pray hard....

Wish my fairy is right beside me. T.T

2010-05-19T03:10:00.000-07:00

[每天都是一种练习。用今天，换走过去。] --- 陈绮贞《每天都是一种练习》

Quick Jokes

2010-05-18T05:49:00.000-07:00

Have you heard about the musician who leaves a message for his wife: Gone Chopin, [have Liszt], Bach in a Minuet.

LOL :D

Earworm

2010-05-15T09:54:00.000-07:00

On and on
She just keeps on trying
And she smiles when she feels like crying
On and on, on and on, on and on...

Poor ol' Jimmy
Sits alone in the moonlight
Saw his woman kiss another man
So he takes a ladder
Steals the stars from the sky
Puts on Sinatra and starts to cry

Oh,I have an ear worm recently and I keep on repeating hearing the same song (Stephen Bishop-On and on) over and over again. The tune isn't catchy but it just goes into my mind easily.Luv it so much...(*.*)You know, in life, it's undeniable that whenever we are trying hard to run out from a difficult situation but we end up in another worst situation.Haiz, out of the frying pan and into the fire..But I wish to toss up my heart and see where it lands as I would rather hurt than feeling nothing at all.

My mom would always sing along to the radio whenever she hears "It might be you" :D If you ever watched Tootsie, you must be familiar with this song.

I indulged much in Frank Sinatra songs as well and he is the singer that popularized the song "My way". This man has an amazing voice!

Ah, just can't take this out of my head...On and on..On and on ...On and on...

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If you wish to sing along, these are the lyrics: ^_^

ON and ON
Down in Jamaica
They got lots of pretty women
Steal your money
Then they break your heart
Lonesome Sue, she's in love with ol' Sam
Take him from the fire into the frying pan

On and on
She just keeps on trying
And she smiles when she feels like crying
On and on, on and on, on and on

Poor ol' Jimmy
Sits alone in the moonlight
Saw his woman kiss another man
So he takes a ladder
Steals the stars from the sky
Puts on Sinatra and starts to cry

On and on
He just keeps on trying
And he smiles when he feels like crying
On and on, on and on, on and on

When the first time is the last time
It can make you feel so bad
But if you know it, show it
Hold on tight
Don't let her say goodnight

Got the sun on my shoulders
And my toes in the sand
My woman's left me for the some other man
Aw, but I don't care
I'll just dream and stay tan
Toss up my heart to see where it lands

On and on
I just keep on trying
And I smile when I feel like dying
On and on, on and on, on and on

On and on, on and on, on and on
On and on, on and on, on and on

IT MIGHT BE YOU

Time, I've been passing time watching trains go by
All of my life
Lying on the sand watching seabirds fly
Wishing there could be someone
Waiting home for me

Something's telling me it might be you
It's telling me it might be you
All of my life

Looking back as lovers go walking past
All of my life
Wondering how they met and what makes it last
If I found the place would I recognize the face

Something's telling me it might be you
It's telling me it might be you
So many quiet walks to take
So many dreams to wake and there's so much love to make

I think we're gonna need some time
Maybe all we need is time
And it's telling me it might be you
All of my life

I've been saving love songs and lullabies
And there's so much more
No one's ever heard before
Something's telling me it might be you
Yeah, it's telling me it must be you and
I'm feeling it'll just be you
All of my life
It's you, it's you I've been waiting for all of my life
Maybe it's you Maybe it's you I've been waiting for all of my life.

P.S I was wondering before this, why the Youtube videos I posted on my blog are wider and they didn't fit well. I just realized that I need to change the wide and height from the script.Alright, now they look neater and nicer.

Sharing is Caring

2010-05-10T03:50:00.000-07:00

1 Do think about whether you really want to do a PhD
Being a PhD student is not the same as being an undergrad, nor like working as a research assistant. A PhD is extremely hard work requiring a lot of discipline and dedication. Don’t just start a PhD because it’s the line of least resistance.

2 Do choose your supervisor well.
The quality of your supervisor will have a direct impact on how much you get out of your PhD and how good (or bad) an experience it is. Don’t choose your PhD supervisor because he/she is the leader in his/her field, in fact that’s the most likely way to find a bad supervisor. Talk to the PhD students already working in the lab, find out whether they are happy and get information about the supervisor’s personality, level of attention (too much/too little?) and how well they plan their projects.

3 Don’t leave the responsibility for your project to others.
Don’t leave it to your supervisor to tell you how to work, what to read or plan your project. This is your learning experience: Get involved and take responsibility as early as possible.

4 Do get support from other PhD students.
When things get tough, the only people who can understand what you are going through are other PhD students (or former ones!). If there are other PhD students around you, arrange to go for regular coffee/lunch breaks with them. If not, try an online forum such as the Postgraduate Forum.

5 Don’t waste your first year.
It is easy to think that you have a long time to complete your PhD, but don’t be lulled into a false sense of security… time has a habit of disappearing fast. Start out as you mean to go on. Establish a strict work and study routine, and stick to it… you are not an undergrad anymore!

6 Don’t spend long hours in the lab for the sake of it.
Make sure that when you are in the lab, you are working and not just hanging around. I’ve seen many people spend 16 hours a day in the lab, but they only actually work for eight hours or less. An 8 hour day, with time away from the lab to relax your body and mind will keep you sharp and focused.

7 Do summarise your results as you go.
From the beginning, get yourself into the discipline of writing a monthly summary of experiments performed, results and conclusions and include all lab book references/data/images. The monthly reports will link up to make a story of your research and make your write-up much easier.

8 Don’t underestimate how long it will take to write up.
However long you think it will take you to write up, double or even trebling it will be closer to the truth. The write-up is the hardest part of your whole PhD. When my wife says that I have no concept of the pain and agony of childbirth, I beg to differ. A PhD is like a long uncomfortable pregnancy and the write up is the long and agonizing labor.

9 Do take every opportunity to practice and learn.
Treat your PhD studies like an intensive training program. Listen to and learn from those around you, take every opportunity to try new techniques, present data, meet other scientists etc.

10 Do get a life.
It’s not all hard work and heartache. Smell the flowers as you go along, enjoy the people around you and make sure you have some fun!

Source: Bitesize Bio (http://bitesizebio.com/2007/09/27/10-dos-and-donts-for-phd-students/)

I can't agree more with point 6 and 10. Haha...Somehow, some people still think that spending long hours in lab is HARDWORKING.

>.<'''

2010-05-09T09:03:00.000-07:00

How dendritic cells play a role in cancer immunotherapy?? I have no idea, don't ask me!
I got a very detail review paper written by Cornelis in 2008, but I really lazy to read!!!!!

ok, I shall go back to the paper. =.=

Sunday

2010-05-08T22:57:00.000-07:00

I woke up around 8.50 a.m. to do some early laundry. After finished, it's already near 10 a.m. Then, I decided to boil some water for cereal.

Subconsciously, my finger was burned with boiling water and don't ask me why because I have no idea how it turns out to be like that. >.<

Sad..

Wednesday 0505

2010-05-05T06:51:00.000-07:00

Nothing special.

It's just like any other ordinary day. But, I refuse to go back together after having dinner. I really need some time for myself. I printed out the piano sheet I downloaded yesterday and went to the Music center nearby.It was quite late after we had our dinner, so without hesitation, I went in and ask if there is any piano room available for me to rent.I went there before during my undergraduate year because they have Jamming room.Last time, they used to charge me RM6/half an hour. hmmm....and after a year, they charged me RM7/half an hour. But what to do, I don't have a piano here with me. I start to appreciate the time when I am at home. I will not be charge for playing piano. Never mind la, as long as, I can practice the song I like. Woohoo!

I got to rent a room with classical piano. It doesn't really matter anyway as I am playing pop song. So, I started off with Yiruma because i think it will eat up more of my time as I only rented for an hour. hmmm...I don't think i started it quite well still need time to grasp the note. After warming up for 20 minutes, i started to get used to the piano and eventually it went smoother. Ha...But, still need more practice in order to make it presentable/ performable. There are still slips when it comes to notes that are far apart. =.= See, this is what will happen when we lack of practice.

For 旅行的意义,I only get to play the first two pages then times up. Aiya..Kiss the rain really eat up my time. I shall come again next time to finish up the next two pages. I didn't call and I just walk back. Good for exercise but it takes me for about 30 minutes.

Nature Oncogene

2010-05-04T23:59:00.000-07:00

p53-Mediated transactivation of LIMK2b links actin dynamics to cell cycle checkpoint control. (Hsu et al.,2010)

Oncogene is an academic journal published by the Nature Publishing Group addressing cancer cell genetics, and the structure and function of oncogene.

Impact factor: 7.216(2008)

Source:Wikipedia

Summary:Pending

终于找到了

2010-05-04T06:46:00.000-07:00

终于找到陈绮贞《旅行的意义》和 Yiruma 琴谱。。

可以练啰！！！！

练琴能让我忘了烦恼，因为我必须要专心。。Kiss the rain is in A♭ major ,key signature;4 flats (B,E,A,D) and it is an andante piece..which means slow..okok..at least i have something to rely on :)

要租 clavinova (Digital piano) 还是 classical piano ?

看到时有什么空出来的琴房吧。。

放弃

2010-05-03T06:31:00.000-07:00

我想在这里对你说，

我可以为了你，放弃我所有的机会，
放弃去台湾，放弃去韩国，放弃在马大，放弃一切留在柔佛。。
我不会后悔，你明白吗?

说说《个人趣向》

2010-05-02T09:30:00.000-07:00

我完蛋了。。我真的完蛋了。。

这部戏真得很好看。。就如我说的，男主角超帅的。

无言。太帅！我应该中毒了。。哈哈。。

Berliner Philharmoniker

2010-04-28T02:25:00.000-07:00

She is so immersed into the music and I wonder how she leads her real life.While she is not in front of the piano, what kind of person is she?

Wish list #1

Mood Swing

2010-04-26T08:45:00.001-07:00

Totally moody the whole day, I don't know why.I strongly feel that I have stuffed enough rubbish into my life...hmmm..What am I going to do now? Good question. Have been asking myself this question don't know how many times? Enough..Enough...Yes..Yes I am going to lead a better life with joy. Papa, I love you, Mama, I will hug you tight when I go back, Ah shan, I promise myself will give you a surprise before or on your bday, Ah ge and Ah ping, I miss you all a lot. Will bring you all out for good food when I go back. I love you all so much!!!!! T.T Papa, thanks for everything, i am not a good daughter. Sorry for disappointing you.

Poem?

2010-04-22T15:20:00.001-07:00

The Job’s Worth Doing Well

There will always be the knockers
When its your turn to sing.
There will always be those who say
You should be doing some other thing.
Remember this is your life, mate.
Do your best right from the bell
Always remembering that if the job’s worth doing,
The job’s worth doing well.
Do not knock the knockers
They are a type of judge.
They test your courage and resolve
To stand tall and never budge.
They spur you to remember
As you hear that final bell
That if the jobs worth doing,
The job’s worth doing well.
You’ve made it to the finals
All is quiet on the wings.
Not a word is heard from those who said
You should be doing other things.
Be glad about the knockers
For giving you so much hell.
They helped you to remember
The job’s worth doing well.
(Wong, 2010)

*Unethically copied from Yushan's post.

我可以一个人在这生活吗？

2010-04-22T06:12:00.000-07:00

为什么每一次都有勇气追求，又没有勇气面对？为什么？为什么？为什么？为什么。。那么怕？

病了。。

2010-04-17T21:17:00.000-07:00

这部戏很好看，因为男主角很帅！不管啦，我承认我是花痴。。。
谢谢你的粥。

安静了

2010-04-17T06:30:00.000-07:00

*Specially dedicated to someone :P 好期待去京都。。

Ee Lin's first lesson on F.Kuhlau

2010-04-17T02:06:00.000-07:00

Please click on the uploaded image to enlarge and zoom to view the suggestion I wrote.

Oh ya, for Bar 9-12, it actually starts with left hand, because in right hand first count is a rest. Therefore to make the melody sound complete, emphasize the first note in left hand, pls. It goes the same for bar 13-16. Trickiest part: The first note for first pair of tuplet is a rest. So please beware of the tempo. Keep track and don't panic. If you are unaware of the count, you might play it a little bit faster or slower. If you lazy to start all over again, play from Bar 11/12, and continue just practicing the miscount part. ( I used to practice this for 1/2 an hour, just repeating the part) So no worries and don't give up.

I am still working on page 2 -3 . Actually it is an advice, your interpretation and mine might not be the same. Just for sharing purposes . *Tee hee :)

Sonatina is always a good book to start. Practice makes perfect and nice expression will come after you have master the notes ya. So please be patient while practicing. (*.*)
NB:To me, a well performed classical music will need to have certain criteria. First, accurate tempo. Next, so often you will come across it is much alike to chromatic scale so beware of finger turning (follow the fingering suggested) , try your best to make the turning smooth. Not to forget, liveliness! Make the piece sound lively by master the dynamics. Classical music is different from Romantic or 20th century piece, it is much simple yet soothing (没有很大的起伏，可是就有细水长流的感觉。）My sis is pretty good in playing Mozart classical piece. You need stamina for this (8-10 consecutive pages, not easy though.)

P.S To those students that ♥ classical music, please buy a notebook and jot down some notes about your feeling on a piece and how do you want it to be played. It can be a handbook that you can keep or share. This will definitely help in your ABRSM oral test. Will update you all when i completed the other two pages. Recently, I am really busy with my work.

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又另一篇转载文章

2010-04-15T00:39:00.000-07:00

转载（最近都很懒，靠转载来滥竽充数 ^^）：

爱和喜欢的不同~喜欢是两个字，爱是一个字；喜欢是一种

心情，爱是一种感情；喜欢是一种直觉，爱是一种感觉；喜欢可以停止，爱没有休止；喜欢一个人有时候盼和他（她）在一起，爱一个人有时候怕和他（她）在一起；喜欢一个人不停的和他（她）争执，爱一个人的时候不停的为他（她）付出；喜欢一个人希望他（她）可以随时找到自己，爱一个人希望自己能随时找到他（她）；喜欢一个人总是为他（她）笑，爱一个人总是为他（她）哭；喜欢是执着，爱是值得；喜欢就是喜欢，很简单，爱是爱，很复杂；喜欢你却不一定爱你，爱你就一定很喜欢你…… 喜欢一个人的时候只是一种心情，认为与对方在一起会感到特别开心，请注意，这只是一种直觉，包括你所认为的对他（她）有一种好感也是一种直觉，这种直觉没有触及到你的内心深处，完全只是一种表面印象。而爱不同，爱是一种感觉，一种发自你内心恶情意萌动，这时对方的形象全在你的头脑与意识深处，这种爱是靠五官来感应，靠七情六欲来激发的！喜欢一个人，有时候盼和他（她）在一起，这是一种非常自然而又正常的心理渴望，而爱一个人有时却怕和他（她）在一起，怕看到对方。常常有这样一种人，渴望见到爱的人却又怕看到对方的身影，特别是不敢触及对方的眼睛，在自己所爱的人面前常常心惊胆跳，面红耳赤！如果你在谁的面前感到自己特别害羞，特别心跳时，那可能就说明你已经爱上对方了…… 说了那么多，还是只有这么一句：喜欢是淡淡的爱，爱是深深的喜欢! 是喜欢是爱大家自己想明白哦

面对你心爱的人你的心跳会加速

然而面对你喜欢的人你只会兴高采烈

面对心爱的人冬天就象是春天

然而面对喜欢的人冬天是个美丽的冬天

假如你凝视的是你心爱的人你会脸红

假如你凝视的是你喜欢的人你会微笑

面对心爱的人你不能说出心中的一切

然而面对你喜欢的人你言无不尽

面对心爱的人你容易羞涩

然而面对你喜欢的人你能展现真实的自我

心爱的人时刻萦绕在你的心头

你不能直视心爱的人的眼睛

然而你却能欣然迎接喜欢的人的目光

当心爱的人哭泣你会一同落泪

而当喜欢的人流泪你会停下来安慰

爱的感觉源自眼睛

而喜欢的感觉源自耳朵

所以你如果不在喜欢你喜欢的人

你只需要堵住耳朵

但如果你试图闭上眼睛

爱变化做一滴泪水永远留在你的心中

世界上最甜美的事情　莫过于你慢慢地向我走来

静静地诉说着「我爱你」

暗恋～

世界上最遥远的距离　不是生与死

而是我就站在你面前　你却不知道我爱你

热恋～

世界上最令人察觉不到的事情　便是你我在一起时

那个不断流逝着的

据说叫做「幸福」的日子

痴恋～

世界上最遥远的距离

不是我就站在你面前　你却不知道我爱你

而是明明知道彼此相爱　却不能在一起

苦恋～

世界上最遥远的距离

不是明明知道彼此相爱　却不能在一起

而是明明无法抵挡这股想念

却还得故意装作丝毫没有把你放在心里

失恋～

世界上最遥远的距离　我明明无法抵挡这股想念

却还得故意装作丝毫没有把你放在心里

而是用自己冷默的心对爱你的人

掘了一条无法跨越的沟渠

　　有些人一直没机会见，等有机会见了，却又犹豫了，相见不如不见。

　　有些事一直没机会做，等有机会了，却不想再做了。

　　有些话埋藏在心中好久，没机会说，等有机会说的时候，却说不出口了。

　　有些爱一直没机会爱，等有机会了，已经不爱了。

　　有些人很多机会相见的，却总找借口推脱，想见的时候已经没机会了。

　　有些话有很多机会说的，却想着以后再说，要说的时候，已经没机会了。

　　有些事有很多机会做的，却一天一天推迟，想做的时候却发现没机会了。

　　有些爱给了你很多机会，却不在意没在乎，想重视的时候已经没机会爱了。

　　人生有时候，总是很讽刺。

　　一转身可能就是一世。

　　说好永远的，不知怎么就散了。最后自己想来想去竟然也搞不清当初是什么原因分开彼此的。然后，你忽然醒悟，感情原来是这么脆弱的。经得起风雨，却经不起平凡；风雨同船，天晴便各自散了。也许只是赌气，也许只是因为小小的事。幻想着和好的甜蜜，或重逢时的拥抱，那个时候会是边流泪边捶打对方，还傻笑着。该是多美的画面。

　　没想到的是，一别竟是一辈子了。

　　于是，各有各的生活，各自爱着别的人。曾经相爱，现在已互不相干。

　　即使在同一个小小的城市，也不曾再相逢。某一天某一刻，走在同一条街，也看不见对方。先是感叹，后来是无奈。

　　也许你很幸福，因为找到另一个适合自己的人。

　　也许你不幸福，因为可能你这一生就只有那个人真正用心在你身上。

读后感：靠！这世上怎么有那么会写的人，把感情描述得那么细腻，他们是爱情专家？那么多时间探讨爱与喜欢，生命难道就只有这两样吗？有时间探讨你能为社会，家庭，朋友和爱人做些什么不是更好? Just think that life should be more than just this.

六弄咖啡馆，好悲

2010-04-09T03:36:00.000-07:00

这天晚上，阿智鼓起勇气打电话给蔡心怡，这通电话为时十秒钟。

[喂？]蔡心怡接起电话。

[喂。]阿智冷静地喂了一声。

[你谁？]蔡心怡问。

[我阿智。]他说。

[你怎么知道我房间电话？]蔡心怡惊讶地问。

[因为我是神，我猜得到。]阿智自以为帅气。

[是喔？那你猜不猜得到我现在要干么？]蔡心怡冷冷地说。

[你要挂我电话。]

[对，你果然是神。]接着就是喀啦一声，然后就嘟---

你的名字我的姓氏

2010-04-07T22:10:00.000-07:00

经典，好听！

T.T

2010-04-05T21:51:00.000-07:00

几米说: 当你喜欢我的时候，
我不喜欢你,当你爱上我的时候，我喜欢上你,
当你离开我的时候，我却爱上你,
是你走得太快，还是我跟不上你的脚步,
我们错过了诺亚方舟,错过了泰坦尼克号,
错过了一切的惊险与不惊险,我们还要继续错过……
但是，请允许我说这样自私的话，
多年后，
你若未娶，
我还未嫁，
那，
我们能不能在一起？？

P.S The promise of dandelion

2010-03-28T08:59:00.000-07:00

转载的，觉得很有意思。。

亲爱的自己，从今天起为了自己骄傲的活着吧，好好爱自己

，没有人会心疼你。

亲爱的自己，不要太在意一些人太在乎一些事，顺其自然以最佳心态面对，因为这世界就是这么不公平往往在最在乎的事物面前我们最没有价值。

亲爱的自己，永远不要为难自己，比如不吃饭、哭泣、自闭、抑郁，这些都是傻瓜才做的事。

亲爱的自己，学会聪明一点，不要老是问周围的人一些很白痴的问题，那真的很无聊。

亲爱的自己，如果不开心了就找个角落或者在被子里哭一下，你不需要别人同情可怜，哭过之后一样可以开心生活。

亲爱的自己，学会控制自己的情绪，谁都不欠你，所以你没有道理跟别人随便发脾气，耍性子。

亲爱的自己，你可以失望但不能绝望，你要始终相信，tomorrow is another day.

亲爱的自己，你不要老是想依赖别人，更不能奢望别人在你需要的时候第一时间站出来，毕竟你们谁都不是谁的谁。

亲爱的自己，永远不要轻易对别人许下承诺，许下的承诺就是欠下的债！

亲爱的自己，这个世界只有回不去的而没有什么是过不去的。

亲爱的自己，别人对你好，你要加倍对别人好，别人对你不好，你还是应该对别人好，因为那说明你还不够好。

亲爱的自己，不管现实有多惨不忍睹你都要固执的相信这只是黎明前短暂的黑暗而已。

亲爱的自己，不要抓住回忆不放，断了线的风筝，只能让它飞，放过它，更是放过自己。

亲爱的自己，全世界只有一个你，就算没有人懂得欣赏，你也要好好爱自己，做最真实的自己。

亲爱的自己，不要太低调了，有时要强悍一点，被欺负的时候，一定要讨回来！但是一定不要记恨，小人之见随他们去好了，怜悯会使你高贵。

亲爱的自己，好好对待陪在你身边的那些人，因为爱情可能只是暂时的但友情是一辈子的。

亲爱的自己，你必须找到除了爱情之外，能够使你用双脚坚强站在大地上的东西。

亲爱的自己，记得要常常仰望天空，记住仰望天空的时候也要看看脚下。

亲爱的自己，相信你的直觉，不要招惹别人，也不要让别人来招惹你。

亲爱的自己，永远不要跟别人搞暧昧，你玩不起！

亲爱的自己，要快乐、要开朗、要坚韧、要温暖，这和性格无关。

亲爱的自己，要自信甚至是自恋一点，时刻提醒自己我值得拥有最好的一切。

Random post

2010-03-23T08:52:00.000-07:00

From now onwards....从今天起。。。

2010-03-18T05:19:00.000-07:00

从今天起，

不要再自己折磨自己。。
一切事情都是由自己的犹豫与不确定造成的，
不要再埋怨了，
对自己的人生多放一点信心和责任，
一切都会美好起来。

爸妈，不会再说对不起了，
因为我会对我自己的人生负责。
芷倩，如果不是你，我也不会有所领悟。

开了个 plurk, 我不是可怜的人。。。

对不起，芷倩

2010-03-17T03:49:00.000-07:00

當你可以接受時才叫好;當你只能接受時也只能當它好;但你只能接受卻不斷埋怨時,你讓你自己很難受,我也很難受.

谢谢你的不珍惜，让我学会了放弃

2010-03-13T21:28:00.000-08:00

转发的，与大家分享：

一个女孩上自习,太凉了,

她发短信让男朋友去送衣服给她,男孩打游戏拒绝了.

这件事让她郁闷了两天然后气消了,

虽然是件小事,不会影响两人以后, 但是她说,

她会记住, 以后自习一定会带衣服,

如果哪天忘记了, 即使冷死,也不再会叫他送.

我很能明白这种感觉.

很久以前,一个女孩某天夜里,

心情特别低回,特别想念某个人的安慰,

然后半夜时分,打电话给他,说很想听他说话,

电话那头的他从睡梦中醒来,不耐烦的敷衍她.

从此以后,她再没有伤心无助时给他打过电话.

我发现女孩身上有一种猫性.

小猫在撒娇或者做错事的时候,需要别人的安慰和教导,

如果这时主人打击了它,它会狠狠记住,不会再犯.

女孩,有着猫一样的自尊.特别是陷入爱情里的女孩...

在别人看来无关紧要,其实需要呵护,

因为爱,已经让她的心变得柔软.

她的这一点自尊,其实是要你对她的在乎.

我看过一句特别经典的话,

有时候女孩需要一个男孩,就像逃机者需要降落伞,

如果此时此刻他不在, 那么以后他也不必在了.

真的,就是这样！

如果哪天猫咪用坚定的眼神看着你说我可以的时候，

那么猫咪已经做好了离开的准备了!

女孩是要独立，

但是独立到不再会对你不讲道理的撒娇任性，

不再会无厘头的缠着你，

你觉得你对于她同路人还有多大区别呢?

女孩的猫性不是每个男孩都有幸看到的，

因为喜欢你，在意你才对你发出特有的咕噜噜声，

其他人只能听到猫喵喵叫，

而这一声咕噜噜只是为你而生，

有几个人会明白呢？？

我们爱折腾

只是爱折腾他而已。

如果有一天

我们慢慢发现自己可以一个人玩都不觉得闷

很久不捏他也不会手痒

只是静静的待在他旁边

不再想着法儿去玩它

谁能知道那时的我们该有多难过呢

男孩总会说女孩无理取闹

说女孩没事找事

说女孩不讲道理

说女孩不可理喻

为什么不去想想

她在对待别人的时候

为什么不是这样的态度

没错

如果有一天

她不再对你撒娇

她不再对你任性

她不再缠着你跟你要这个要那个

她不再因为你的任何事情微笑或者皱眉

那么

你就永远的失去她了！

Largamente

2010-03-10T05:05:00.000-08:00

My lab work is progressing at the speed of "largamente". I need more time to revise my Korean language, need time to practice my piano (abandon Czerny and Hanon for a long time already), and I don't want to just teach basic violin!!!!!

*Czerny-The Art of Finger Dexterity and The School of Velocity are handbooks that enable you to have strong fingers, especially ring and last fingers. These two fingers are normally weak and end up causing slips while you play a fast (vivace/ presto) piece. =.=
*Hanon- he is famous so i need not to elaborate more la...practice, practice and practice this is what he emphasized.

My life is progressing in "agitato" mode. Ee Lin, be more discipline, don't practice before the class just about to start. I always feel guilty when I asked my students whether they got practice or not as I didn't practice as well. Arghhhh.....T.T

Want to promote my friend's blog. http://boonming.com/(I know both bak and kut during secondary school and boon ming a.k.a bak is me and my sis's friend as such a coincidence they study in the same uni.文明和凯毅你们超棒的哦！！！

张韶涵-看得最远的地方

2010-03-05T21:37:00.000-08:00

看得最远的地方

作词姚若龙作曲陈小霞

你是第一个发现我
越面无表情越是心里难过
所以当我不肯落泪地颤抖
你会心疼的抱我在胸口

你比谁都还了解我
内心的渴望比表面来得多
所以当我跌断翅膀的时候
你不扶我但陪我学忍痛

我要去看得最远的地方
和你手舞足蹈聊梦想
像从来没有失过望受过伤
还相信敢飞就有天空那样

我要在看得最远的地方
披第一道曙光在肩膀
被泼过太冷的雨滴和雪花
更坚持微笑要暖得像太阳

有时候觉得我们很不一样
你能看见我看不到的地方
有时候又觉得我们很像
都爱仰起头不听命运的话

P.S LYC, 一起实现梦想吧！买车别急啦。。。

Awkward

2010-03-01T03:26:00.000-08:00

It was totally awkward for me to have an adult student. I can really feel the big differences and hardly can get rid of the awkwardness . It becomes more intense when the class was carried out. I don't know whether to treat the person as my friend or as my student.

If your student is between 5-12 years old,
1) they will just listen and trust what you said. It is very easy to gain their trust, but do remember never betray their trust.Extremely vital!!!!Don't give false hope to them.
2) they will talk a lot. Non-stop. To be frank, I am already very talkative, they are more talkative than me and I would classify them as hyperactive. Wuahahahaha....
3) they will give you their house's phone number, their parent's phone number, their siblings phone number and insist that you should call them. Aiyo...the paper fulled with phone numbers is placed in their pencil box by their parents, just in case anything urgent happens.
4) they want to have extra time for playing games rather than playing piano. (I can understand this very well, this is what we need to overcome in order to learn something new and unfamiliar with.)
5) show them something new, and you will see how they are attracted to you. (I mean games)

If your student is above 20 years old,
1) they would not talk so much in class. (Normally is a one-to- one lesson, if the person doesn't open his mouth, then I really don't know how to teach. )
2) It's hard to teach them how to play la , by demonstration. Can I touch their hands when they actually play wrongly? How to ask whether they mind or not ...no idea
3) Overall, the class is boring and no fun at all. (Unless he/ she is handsome or pretty) that would be another story.

Yiruma-The South Korean Pianist

2010-02-27T20:45:00.000-08:00

I have no idea who is Yiruma initially. But my lab mate, Hun Wei introduced his music to me. He adores his music a lot especially-River flows in you and Kiss the Rain. Nice one! Thanks =)

Yiruma- River flows in you

Yiruma-Kiss the Rain

Soda green

2010-02-23T08:34:00.000-08:00

Inspired by Vivaldi-Four Seasons

洗刷刷

2010-02-21T09:28:00.000-08:00

很混乱！！！！！我的心需要大扫除！！！！

愛不單行

2010-02-19T21:36:00.000-08:00

看了海派甜心，发现自己心境老了。惨了。。怎么情感少了，对爱也少了一份憧憬。不觉得独行侠有什么不好。

斌和颖

2010-02-05T19:28:00.000-08:00

Can't stand him when he asked his gf to iron clothes for him whenever she comes over to our house before headed to shopping mall. I already asked her not to bother him so much let him do this chores himself ，她竟然跟我说没办法不帮他。。。晕！

她说中五毕业后就不读了。原因：累了。我无语问苍天。。。。

心被门困着

2010-02-05T17:24:00.000-08:00

闷
王菲
作词:林夕
作曲:张亚东

谁说爱上一个不回家的人
唯一结局就是无止境的等
是不是不管爱上什么人
也要天长地久求一个安稳
噢噢难道真没有别的剧本
怪不得能动不动就说到永恒
谁说爱人就该爱他的灵魂
否则听起来就让人觉得不诚恳
是不是不管爱上什么人
也要天长地久求一个安稳
噢噢我真想有那么单纯
不可能难道真没有别的可能
这怎么成
我不要安稳
我不要牺牲
别希望我会爱到满身伤痕
我不怕沉沦
一切随兴能不能

Beats

2010-01-31T09:27:00.000-08:00

Crotchet= Blue
Minim=Two oo
dotted minim= Three-ee-ee
Semibreve= Four-oo-oo-oo
Quaver= Jello
dotted crotchet=Blue-oo
semiquaver=Huckleberry
Triplets= Pineapple
more, more and more

Wesley cried today while we played games during music appreciation class. hmmm... i noticed that he is a bit 'kiasu' and ego. I realised that playing games can be the best way to understand your students. When he started to cry, I just stop the game. Then he cried even louder, why winning is so important to him? Why he just can't lose to others? I favored him a lot, but i really want him to learn his lesson. So after terminating the game, I asked him to just sit at the corner as the class still need to be continued. He knew that I was annoyed by his attitude, so he still obey what i asked him to do but still in tears. Class continued. Everybody seems keep looking at him but somehow i still be able to make them focused on what i am going to deliver.

Class ended.

I asked him to come near me. He walked slowly, no more tears but still keep rubbing his eyes. "Go bring your tumbler and drink water first. "

Talk to him. He didn't reply but just nodded his head.

It isn't about winning (games), but it is your attitude while playing it.

What for winning a game but you don't enjoy it. If it makes you cry and sad, there is no point playing it anymore , right? In this case, you should know win and lose are common and there is no big deal about it. Just take it. He looked at me with his dry eyes (effect after crying so much) and nodded a few times. I guess he did learn something today. A lesson that might be helpful in future.

Tough day.

Back to lab to cryopreserve MDCK cell and seed cells for infection.

yi huey flew back from Guang Zhou. We had yum cha session at Papa rich cafe.

Chat till mid night. Got sourvenirs from china and Vietnam ( Mun mun just back from Vietnam (company trip).

再见伟达。。。

2010-01-28T03:01:00.000-08:00

嗯。。。昨天知道伟达就要离开SAB LAB 了....好快喔...坦白说, 我想离开很久了..他比我强..一声不响,说多两天就不做了...可能男生就是比较果断吧,不喜欢拖泥带水.

Boon teong 和 Sam （实验室里的未来博士couple) 提议不如去pasar malam 享用晚餐..然后明晚又去吃bbq chicken ..哇...怎么都和我一样那么爱吃....因为他们有bbq chicken 餐卷..买一送一...

伟达, 祝你前程似锦,找到自己的人生目标.=) 加油!!!

如果

2010-01-23T03:41:00.000-08:00

如果你也听说

如果的事

如果有一天

如果没有你

如果我变成回忆

如果世上没有傻瓜

如果。爱

如果你听见我的歌

没有如果!

Learning music

2010-01-22T08:29:00.000-08:00

In Maple Music and Art Academy, they approached lots of music teaching method but they emphasize on Little Bear Teaching Method. Before this, I never heard of this before as I was taught in a very traditional way whereby there are less two way communication and i need to obey and agree with what my teacher said....hmmm sounds very boring, right? Therefore, after i reached grade 5 I decided to quit learning from this teacher. I explained to my mom that she didn't inspire me much and all the time I am just accepting. To be honest, I don't think it will work if I stay with this teacher as it just make my interest deteriorates day by day...How sad it is!!!

Luckily, my mom did think over thoroughly what i had suggested and voiced out. At last, I get to learn from another teacher who stay quite near to my house and instead for her to come, I will go to her house to learn.

Her first impression to me is she is another normal lady but when she played the piano. Speechless, I would say. Not only technical wise, and her expression and dynamics is so strong. You will know she is not just playing the notes, but the stories behind. Not many people can actually achieve that. It is easy to find a pianist that can play a piece really well (i.e no slips, no wrong notes and always at the right tempo) but to discover a pianist that can play perfectly (i.e no slips, no wrong notes, always at the right tempo and never forget the expression and dynamics) , is not easy though... hehe...expression doesn't come with practice only but it depends on how much you know about the composer and the background of the piece whether it is composed by Bach, Schubert,Chopin, Beethoven, Debussy, or Mozart and between what period they composed the sonata whether it is baroque, classical, romantic .20th century or contemporary.

The composer that I like the most is Beethoven. Why? I couldn't explain. He is the composer that have lots of story to tell..You can clearly notice that if you go deeper into and appreciate his music. But it is really hard to play the song he composed. There are several reasons. Firstly, he likes to create dissonant sounds in his pieces and it is so inharmonious that makes you feel like you are playing the wrong notes. Secondly, his pieces seldom have a fix tempo, rubato is common in his romantic pieces. Smart ..Smart ...Smart..It adds lots of flavor to a piece but once you interpret it wrongly, then it turns out to be NOISE which my family suffers a lot. Wuahahaha...When I started to learn a Beethoven piece, my bro will get frustrated easily and always try to distract me and ask me to watch TV with him. So sad..haha...but me myself sometimes also cannot tahan..It is not like pop song, you play, you sing, and people enjoy. Beethoven is aggresive and soft it might start of with ff , fff or sf and the next note could be pp and ppp. What a complicated man! hehe..when i choose Beethoven pieces for my grade 8 exam, my teacher and I are nervous. It can be an advantage or disadvantage by choosing the music he composed.Not many candidates will actually pick the song. They prefer classical (long piece but lots of repetition and the melody and rhythm is always harmonious. Therefore, whoever that able to deliver the Beethoven piece well will really achieve high score. So risky. Besides, it is very hard to achieve high marks if you choose classical song because lots of candidates chose the same song and during exam , the examiner have to examined so many candidates and if every candidate play the same song over and over again. Definitely it would be bored and plain boring.

Just like what my teacher said, 'It is the matter of how much you understand him and why he wrote it that way'

Interpretation is the key. But the examiner think that i played the piece like young beethoven. The reason is i still can't switch the dynamics and expression naturally. From suddenly loud to suddenly soft, and to make it sound naturally is so tough. Sometimes I might go overboard and it seems i have overdone it. Sometimes I just can't portray the whole things. Frustrated. At that time, my teacher and I will just pause for a while and just have a break..Go for scale or arpeggios ...then come back to pieces. Or we will discuss about horoscope. Both of us believe that horoscope does affect a person characteristic and personality.

Now, is my turn to nurture and not just only teach. I want them to see me as a mentor but not just another ordinary teacher. To me, there is no such things like no potential or talent. It just come from your heart, whether you like it or not. If you like it, hard work should not be a problem. What else that matters then ?

p/s: got lots of grammatical error..but i lazy to correct, just bear with me.
More to write but will save it for next post..

真的有点累了

2010-01-22T08:26:00.000-08:00

重生！=）

500 Days in Summer

2010-01-16T04:55:00.000-08:00

Joseph Gordon-Levitt and Zooey Deschanel in a scene '500 Days in Summer.
Source: About.com: World or Independent film

500 Days in Summer ...

I watched this movie with CC and GW in their room at UT before i headed back home after working in lab.

As narrated, 'This is a story of boy meets girl, but you should know upfront, this is not a love story.'Nonetheless, I did have some thoughts after finish watching but I can't really recall back. Maybe this movie review should have written earlier.So what i did is, I try to google out the memorable movie quotes and somehow try to relate back. =)

Most days of the year are unremarkable. They begin, and they end, with no lasting memories made in between. Most days have no impact on the course of a life. May 23rd was a Wednesday.
Ee Lin: It's true, at least to some extent.

Tom: People buy cards because they can't say what they feel or are afraid to. And we provide them the service that let's them off the hook.
Ee Lin: FYI, Tom works in a greeting cards company and brainstorms greeting cards quotes is one of his daily responsibilities. I like to buy and send greeting cards because I love to receive one. It's just that simple or I have difficulty in expressing myself? hmmm..not the latter one i guess.

Summer: Well, you know, i guess it's 'cause I was sitting in a deli and reading Dorian Gray and a guy comes up to me and asks me about it and...now he's my husband.
Tom: Yeah, and so?
Summer: So what if I had gone to the movies? What if I had gone somewhere else for lunch? What if I had gotten there 10 minutes later? It was- It was meant to be . And I just kept thinking ...Tom was right.
Tom: No
Summer: Yeah, I did (laugh)
Summer: I did. It's just wasn't me that you were right about.
Ee Lin: hmmm..self experienced it, and you'll know. This would be the quote that i like the most.

Summer: I woke up in the morning and i just knew.
Tom: knew what?
Summer: What i was never sure of with you.
Ee Lin: I guess humans as a species have some natural instinct to be able to lead you to the path that suits you best?

I guess that's all for this post. Go watch it, if this post has aroused your interest.

Dilemma

2010-01-10T06:04:00.000-08:00

I had abandoned my blog for two months and this would be the first post for 2010. Actually I planned to blog on my bday as I had officially turned to 23 , it might be a new year resolution post or something but just hardly get motivated to do so. Garghhhhh....since when i become so lazy and demotivated.

hmmm....this post will be quite messy, not written in chronological order and it would be an emotional one. I just want to vomit out the thought that stuffed my brain.

To be frank, SAB lab is a lab that has lots of potential to grow. I am sure that I would be able to learn a lot from this lab if i stay long enough. They have their own sequencher, Microarray, Flow cytometry, Real time-PCR machine, and lots more. Not to forget, the new lab is going to start operating soon. It is a BSL 3 lab and it would not be a problem for us to handle highly infectious material anymore soon. But how come i still don't feel a sense of belonging? Undeniably, the seniors are friendly and kind. The supervisors are good and understanding. Colleagues/ peers are helpful. What other things that matters?

I don't know....

My mom is not feeling well these days. Is really NOT FEELING WELL.

She keep on asking me to quit if i don't feel happy but can i ?

Why think of quitting when there is nothing happens..and just unhappy without a reason.

Can't blog anymore. I need to work on my project now.

Hiatus

2009-10-05T08:17:00.000-07:00

Life was hectic. But I will post something on Toast master soon.

Maple music art academy is good as they train their piano teacher to play violin as well so that a teacher will be teaching two instruments and specialize in one. Really appreciate it as they really nurture their teaching workforce. I think they are actually doing the right thing. Can't wait to explore violin!

Home cook Prawn mee

2009-09-17T23:03:00.000-07:00

The soup has to be boiled with pre-fried prawn head and some chicken bones to make it flavorful and have more fragrant.

Hmmmm....found out that my cooking skills have not been deteriorated and still performing up to par although I didn't cook as often as last time. (*_*) syok sendiri. Honestly, I used to cook dinner for my family during my secondary school days. Dinner will be ready before 5. 30p.m. so that my mom could have her early dinner after worked.(She will be grumpy if the dinner wasn't prepared!) Somehow, I think I am a little ill prepared on the ingredients, I should have added some lard, bean sprout or 'chinese water spinach' to make it more irresistible. But luckily, my bro and sis think it is delicious. Wuahahahaha....*wink*

A Day Out With Friends

2009-09-14T08:16:00.000-07:00

Just as we planned, today will be the late celebration for Cher Chien's birthday. Geok Wei and Cher Chien came all the way from UT to Cheras just to pick me up before heading to Jusco Cheras Selatan. Actually i wanted to go there by myself but they 'prohibited' me to do so. Therefore, I can do nothing besides waiting for them to come over. When they reached, it was such a coincidence that my dad was at home as he came back from the office. Sob sob ...My dad is still having sore throat and his nose is still running. Pity him. Sometimes, I did blame myself for not working in Sg. If I start earning money now, maybe he can retire and go for a holiday or something... But he is always being kind to me and support all the decision that I have made. Even though the decision might sound stupid or immature. 'It is okay to stumble and fall sometimes.' He believes people grow from mistakes. Again, I am straying too far from the title. =.=

We reached Jusco around 2.30pm. Without any hesitation, we rushed to green box in order to satisfy our key-off singing desire, wuahahahaha. I will never miss to sing the song 失落沙洲!!!! Undoubtedly, the lyric and melody are so heart- warming. Both of them have the same feeling as i do, so we sang the song twice. =)

Eventually, the karaoke session ended up on 5.30pm and is MOVIE time!!! We wanted to watch 'The ugly truth' badly as we are all fond of the romance genre movie. Not bad.. If you ask me to rate, the score will be 9.5 out of 10. Part of the movie is a bit similar to 'He's just not that into you'. Not much different though in terms of the plot. I believe guys will say' the ending is so predictable and gals always want to see happy ending' . Yada, yada...whatever..

Hmmmm, Cher chien didn't find anything fancy for her bday present at the mall. She will save it for the next outing i guess. But overall, today was fun and we wrapped up the day by singing along to the car radio. It is our favourite song----> Lenka (The Show).Tee hee..

Have -Done list:
1) Watch 'The Ugly Truth'

Perseverance.Hardworking.Determination

2009-09-13T21:23:00.000-07:00

If you believe in miracles

and dreams that all come true

you will find as if by magic

they will unfold in front of you

no matter how dark the burden

nor how heavy the load you hold

those dreams are waiting for you

all shimmering like gold

just believe in yourself

and keep focused every day

and never for a moment

allow them to slip away!

Then simple try to recognize

the strength you have within

and you’ll find that every battle

you so easily can win

just solidly determined

and focused in every way

and you’re sure to find the magic that lies in every day!

Get-up-and-go

2009-09-13T06:24:00.000-07:00

To do list:

1) Do some reading on Nipah and H1N1 viruses and try to identify the antigenic epitopes using some available softwares. I have no idea which analyzing software to use. Will try to Google. Thereafter, prepare a short sum up review. Extremely vital, as it illustrates the input that have successfully goes into my mind.

2) I need to digest a meaningful book that share some useful thoughts on how we lead our life to happiness by making a right decision. Hmmm, I bought it because it might be a handbook for me as I always struggled in decision making (But, I took management during undergrad).Sigh.

3) I think i have been eating non-stop starting from the past few weeks and lack of exercise. I am turning myself into a gigantic dinosaur. Without hesitation, get my sport shoes and swimming suit ready and stop overeating. Cheh, ALL TALK and NO ACTION!

4) Watch 'The Ugly Truth'

5) Join Toastmaster gathering and get to know awesome people. Learn from the way they speak out their mind and share their ideas in an impromptu manner.

Due : Next Sunday

Another Random Saturday

2009-09-12T06:18:00.000-07:00

Venue: UT (Cher Chien's room) ; Time: 9.23p.m.; Mood: Mixed feelings

Quick updates:

1) To clarify, I am not supposed to be around UT/UM on Saturday. But I did. Hey, is my best friend's birthday and I really don't want her to celebrate alone. (If i am wealthy enough, I will buy her a two way air tickets from KL to KT so that she get to celebrate with her bf & family and enjoy her bday to the fullest.) But the fact is, I am dirt-poor. T.T

2) The best alternative I can take is to purchase two slices of cakes from Secret recipe and brought to her room in order to surprise her. Just in case you are curious of the cakes' flavor , they are lemon cheese and golden nugget.Cher chien isn't a big fan for sweet food so I try to avoid chocolate, ripe mango and some extremely sweet filling. I guess I had tried my best. Somehow cakes will still taste sweet, aren't they ?

3) Initially, I planned to bring her out for celebration. However, she told me that she had ordered vege rice from the caterer. =.= . Never mind, the huge celebration will be held on next week. FYI, there are lots of plan pending and it will be a real big one till our best friend, Geok Wei came back from Malacca.

4) We took our dinner in room. I bought packet rice from Bazaar Ramadan along my way to UT. We enjoyed each other company a lot. It doesn't matter what we had for our dinner, but with whom we have it that really takes into account. =)

p/s :I think my emotional intelligence quotient is extremely low.
我不是一定要你回來
只是当独自走入人海
除了你之外的依赖
还有谁能叫我勇敢

T.G.I Friday

2009-09-11T05:53:00.000-07:00

Today, I was a bit lazy and woke up around 9 a.m. My best friend ,Cher Chien called me around 10 something and told me that Prof Viki will be in her room today.So, it means that i get to talk to her about my intention to leave. A bit nervous though...But, I still need to make a decision fast and tell her that I got an offer that allows me to continue my master. Have to tell her early, so that she will not be so annoyed as she had a bad experience with her Phd student before.

I am not in the right mood to blog but I have promised myself to at least write something per day.

Oh ya, we had our lunch at SS2 .The traffic was so congested and the weather was so hot as it was 2 pm in the afternoon. Beh tahan!!!! This would have drive all the drivers mad. Get honked several times and this had sufficiently made my blood boiled and flushed my face hot. You thought you are the only one that get irritates with the weather and traffic arh??!

Finally ,we reached that place. A nicely decorated Shang Hai Restaurant. We took set lunch which cost around RM9.90-10.90. Mine cost 10.90 and it includes a bowl of fried mee ( minced meat+ special soya sauce and some chili oil ) + drink ( sugar cane boil with carrot) and xiao long bao. Not bad afterall especially the xiao long bao and the drink. To me, the fried mee is a bit too oily. Nevertheless, we did ordered some side dishes ( Fried fu zuk rolled with prawn and cuttle fish and white lotus popia>> simply named it).The fried fu zuk thingy is special and delicious. We were all indulged by the side dishes. After chit chatting for a while, we decided to leave.

Then, we headed back to UT as there isn't any lab work.

I guess I will not be so free next month as Medic fac has a different kind of rigour.Don't know with that kind of routine , I will be driven mad or not?? Hmmmm...I wondered whether I still can have lunch with my best buddies .Lunch time will not be fun anymore without your company my friends.

My sister came back to KL from Sg today. Can't wait to see her although we just met 2 weeks ago. My mom bought a lot of fruits today. Yay, we can have fruit yogurt. I love honey dew :)

That's all for today.

Time to chit chat with my sister and plan properly where we want to go tomorrow.

Tomorrow is Cher Chien's bday. Happy Be-early birthday, wish all your dream comes true. Only god knows how i treasure our friendship.

Dissection and Rat Surgery

2009-09-10T04:41:00.000-07:00

Today, as usual i woke up around 7.30 a.m. and quickly get myself ready for work. *grin*. Actually cannot consider as going to work also because i was not assigned with any lab work by Prof Viki yet. But my friend, Li fang will be doing dissection and rat surgery today. I am so looking forward to see how she carried out rat surgery in the Anatomy department. But i have doraphobia (fear of the skin or fur of animal)!! I want to get rid of this FEAR as i might need to deal with mice in the future (vaccination-don't know whether through oral/ nasal immunization or inter vascular vaccination). Whenever i think of that, i am extremely terrified but i am not easily defeated. Will try my best to overcome. Haha..

Back to story.

Li Fang arrived the lab around 10 a.m. I just follow whenever she goes. FYI, she is one of my faculty mate from UTM majoring in pure biology. She said she wants to go and check out the Grey oyster ( a kind of mushroom) that she have been freeze dried for 3 days. She told me that the freeze dried mushroom will be ground into fine powder for the ease of making mushroom extract. Her research focus on applying mushroom extract to help prevent neurodegenerative diseases such as Alzheimer , Parkinson and Huntington disease. These are the related diseases that i can think of at this moment. Li fang's uncle has a very established mushroom farm in Jenjarom. What i can say is , she has broad knowledge on mushroom. She can name the mushroom scientifically and spontaneously. Her sister is doing plant tissue culture on mushroom as well in Perth, Australia.I foresee their mushroom business will grow nationwide as they have very solid knowledge on these ' gilled fungi'. :)

Priscilla, who will be doing a similar project with Li Fang came to the lab later. She was absent yesterday and missed out some important calculation taught by the senior. Therefore, Li fang will assist her by briefly going through with her on what the senior has taught yesterday. Some essential calculation on tissue culture. I get to learn what is coating. Intriguing!

Ah ha, I get to chit chat with Mei Lin today. A girl from UMT who is now working as a RA in Pharmacology department. To be frank, she is a very outspoken girl and it was nice to have a long conversation with her. She was very frustrated with her plates as her desired bacteria wasn't growing and the agar is feeding the fungi instead. Hmmm..can understand how she felt. Sometimes, things just do not turn out right. But i believe tomorrow will be another brand new day. So hopefully the new plates will be free from contamination so that she can carry on with her work as planned.

I digressed too much from the title. haiz. I always tend to be long winded.

After having lunch with lab mates in Seksyen 17, we proceeded to the Anatomy department in Medic fac. Car park for student is like flying pig over there. Tsk tsk tsk ...But we 'managed' to park illegally!Clap Clap...Then we went to the animal house or also known as Animal Holding Unit (AHU) to get the mice. Although the smell sucks,the rabbits over there are so cute and surprisingly they are very aggressive and hyperactive. I wonder what they have gone through. Big thanks to them , as they are assisting researchers in conducting research to help mankind. It wasn't sound fair to me. I am totally against vivisection. But the contradict part is I am a researcher. Wtf.

Mice were dissected and undergone perfusion. Li fang mistakenly poked the heart chamber. I am not sure which chamber to poke. Blood bursted! We looked at each other and it was our turn to burst into laughter. Gee...Luckily it didn't stain my lab coat or hit right to my face. Thank god. Perfusion method is a method to drain out all the blood from the mice and eventually preserved it with chloroform. Normally, the mice will not shivered as it happened today. But as Li fang has mistakenly poked the wrong chamber, the mice shivered and there are mucus and blood coming out from the nostril. Can u imagine the mice even bite its own tongue?!It was tough in aiming the right chamber to poke as the heart beats very fast.The purpose for her to do dissection is to examine the sciatic nerve and do immuno staining before she can carry out some in vivo experiments.

In the case of rat surgery , the rat wasn't dissected or sacrificed. The fur on the femur was trimmed before the surgery was carried out. Li fang is good , as she found the sciatic nerve in less than few seconds without digging the flesh. She disrupted the sciatic nerve in order to see what will happen to the rat. As far as i know, the leg movement of the rat will be limited. Phew...At last , come to the stitching part. The flesh was stitched before the skin. Stitching is the fun part as it is so similar to what a doctor is doing. Finally, we applied some chloramphenicol on the stitches to prevent infection. Li fang said stitches will cause itchiness to the rat and they usually bite the stitches off. Awww...Little rat, please don't do that for the sake of your leg...infected wound is going to give you much more pain.

Then, we called it another working day. But gals, it was totally an experience for me!Thanks for including me on your 'adventure'.

Drive home and again traffic jam is unavoidable ...I hate congestion.: (

Till the next post.

We learn from pain not from happiness!

2009-09-09T06:56:00.000-07:00

Dear Ee Lin,

In the past few months, you have been busy searching jobs in Singapore and eventually you got an interview from National Cancer Center in Singapore. You were so thrilled and excited at that time. However, these feelings didn't last long enough till you start the job. Along the interview and application process, you had struggled so much due to so many doubts and worries. You weren't able to describe what is the actual fear at that particular moment. But, as it goes along, you found out that it was you yourself. You are always lack of confidence and never ever try to solve problem or even dare to face them. With this kind of behavior and attitude, you made yourself lost a very good opportunity.

p/s: I felt very sorry to the principal investigator, Dr. Mac and his research staffs from the laboratory of oncoproteomics (Hui min, Siok yuen, Celine, Khin and Grace) . Due to my indecisiveness, I had made the whole recruiting process lengthy and difficult. To be honest, I felt like a troublemaker and it just so not ME! Me myself also get frustrated. Can't really imagine how they actually feel about me. I can't believe that i still have doubts till the day i am going to sign the offer letter, it was totally insane and ridiculous.I was very upset with my own indecisiveness. But, what i can say is , never look back but take this experience to grow and be a better person. My journey as a graduate student will start off next month in Oct and I believe there are so many things that i have to learn and explore in Science. Conducting research is my passion and strive to be happy is my motto.

Attached article is what my best friend, YiHuey has posted on her blog lately,

苏格拉底是古希腊的大哲学家。他在风烛残年之际，想考验和点化一位平时看来很不错的助手。于是，他把那位助手叫到病床前，深情地说：“ 我的蜡所剩不多了，得找另一根蜡接着点下去，你明白我的意思吗？”

助手连忙答道：明白，您的光辉思想得很好地传承下去！

可是，苏格拉底慢悠悠地说，“我需要一位最优秀的传承者。他要富有智慧，要具有非凡的勇气和信心。你帮我寻找和发掘这样的人吧！”

“好的，好的。我一定竭尽全力地寻找，决不辜负您的栽培和信任。”助手温顺地说。

苏格拉底笑了笑，没说什么。

那位忠诚而又勤奋的助手，不辞辛劳地到处寻找。可是，导师苏格拉底都婉言谢绝了他找来的人。病入膏肓的苏格拉底硬撑着坐起来，抚着助手的肩膀，说：“真辛苦你了！但是，你找来的人，怎么能成为我的传承者呢？”

“我一定加倍努力。”助手恳切地说，“哪怕找遍天涯海角，我也要找到那位最优秀的人，举荐给您。”

苏格拉底又是笑了笑，没再说什么。

半年之后，苏格拉底眼看自己就要告别人世，然而寻找传承者的事还没有眉目，只好再把助手叫到自己的床边。助手泪流满面，沉重地说：“我真对不起您，令您失望了！”

“ 失望的是我，对不起的却是你！”说到这里，苏格拉底就闭上眼睛。停顿许久，他又不无哀怨地说：“本来，最优秀的就是你。你不敢相信自己，才把自己给忽略、给耽误、给丢失了。你要知道，每个人都可以成为最优秀的人才。关键在于能否自己认识自己、自己尊重和推荐自己……”话没说完，一代哲人——苏格拉底就永远地离开了他深切关注的世界……

meaningful though!